I was attempting to take a pre-evening-out nap, but I was restless, and I realized that's because I hadn't been here much. (How senseless is that?) So, here I am, once again assuring you all that I am indeed still alive.
What's funny about journaling is how negative everything is. I mean, the reason I'm not here much is because life is great right now, and when life is great, who sits down in front of their computer to "write it out of their system?" Good times keep me out of the house and in the company of friends, which is pretty much what I've been up to. Despite some uncertain and unsettling experiences from the past week or so, this is the happiest I've been in a very long time.
I know it doesn't mean much when I say "this is the happiest I've been in a very long time," if I don't explain why, exactly, I'm so happy, but honestly, I don't have the energy. I'm exhausted, and I desperately want to take a nap before I go line-dancing with my friends tonight. (Like in Gone With the Wind when all of the ladies nap after lunch so they're fresh for the evenings festivities.) I will say that, no, it has nothing to do with boys...or rather, I'm not happy because I'm seeing some mystery boy or something. In fact, I'm happy because I'm not really dating anyone and instead I'm focusing on developing my (brace yourself for the sickeningly-sweet cliché) relationship with God. This is the most "full" I've felt in any relationship, and certainly the best I've felt spiritually. As if that's not enough, my relationships with my girlfriends are flourishing and that's just the best. I'm looking at moving in with one of my girlfriends, and that's super exciting! Oh, and I got an AMAZING job for a pretty major television outlet, but I'm hesitant to discuss the details until the ink dries. Or rather, until we end our negotiations on Monday. More on that soon enough.
So. I'm really tired and I have to be ready in an hour. Half-hour nap, here I come!
This past weekend, despite my still being sick, was the best that I've had in a very long time. Also, and this seems to be a recurring theme, it was one of the least productive weekends I've had in a very long time.
On Friday night I went out to sushi with some of my work-mates, and following that we met another group of friends downtown for drinks and general debauchery. A very dear friend of mine hasn't yet turned 21, but the nice part about going for drinks at a restaurant is that under-21s can still attend, they just can't drink. If she weren't there, the night wouldn't have been nearly as fun. In fact, it would have been unbearable. Now, I know I said that this weekend was the best that I've had recently, so the statement that my Friday night would have been unbearable without the company of my girlfriend might be a little confusing. I suppose it would be more accurate to say that this past weekend was the best I've had recently because of the company of my girlfriend. A lot of things happened that would have made me disappointed or sad, but having her around made it all so much better. This is a really new concept for me.
I, like many women, don't have many girlfriends, I think I have two, with an occasional third. Anyway, that's bothered me for a very long time. Women are women's best resource of comfort and understanding, simply because we're all going through the same things. Sure, the details are different for each of us, but the fundamental problems that we're dealing with are strikingly similar. The majority of us are dealing with the same issues when we take the time to get to the heart of the matter. Unfortunately, negative-competition and insecurity wraps each girl/woman into her own little cocoon, the result being an entire population of women that are totally disconnected from each other. When I think of all of the wisdom and life-experience that I'm missing out on my not having a close network of women-friends, it makes me really sad. So, I'm really glad that I'm beginning to develop those kinds of relationships in my life, and I'm really grateful to know some really cool chicks to hang out with!
Saturday was a blast because one of my best-friends was in town for the weekend. I hadn't seen him in ages but hanging out was just like old times. We spent Saturday afternoon walking around downtown, did some window-shopping, and later in the afternoon we were joined by another old friend of mine. It was so nice, hanging out with the two of them again. Later in the evening we met my two girlfriends for dinner, along with another recently-made guy friend of mine- six of us all together. We ate at this cute little italian place called Mama's Meatball, I just love the food there. Simple and well done, which seems to be a difficult achievement for most small-restaurants.
After dinner we all came back to my place and tried unsuccessfully to play a six-person round of the game Life. We have the attention-spans of seven year olds, I swear. Everyone was marrying everyone, salaries were being debated, and in the end, no one won. (Heh. Kinda sounds like real-life sometimes.) As the evening wore on, one of my girlfriends departed, as well as one of my guy-friends, leaving myself, my girlfriend and my two guy-friends that I spent Saturday afternoon with. It was a giant sleep over, and it was a lot of fun.
Sunday morning was spent with my girlfriend, which was lovely, and then we both headed into work. After work I caught the movie Eastern Promises with above-mentioned new-guy-friend (NGF?). That movie is not for the faint of heart. It was really well done, and I enjoyed it, but yeah...really gross sometimes.
So that was my weekend in a nutshell. I left out the disappointed/sad bits, and also the dramatic bits, because really, does that stuff have a place on a public forum? I think it's enough to say, once again, that I'm grateful to have a great girlfriend to share in those experiences with me and offer her take on things, as well as her support. You're fab!
So, here we are on Monday. Still sick. I'm seriously considering ignoring how wretched I feel and just chugging along as if nothing is the matter. I mean, I have to get better sometime, right?
Here's to hoping that you all had lovely weekends full of good friends! :)
